Lynn's Story - A journey to become who I'm meant to be.

Have you ever thought you had a happy childhood and even though your parents didn’t have much, it was still good? It’s interesting as an adult to look back at a mom who was a narcissist, who you accepted as a good mom and realize that every friendship and relationship you have had was affected by that. In every relationship you made yourself smaller to accommodate others, never thinking to put yourself first. Always trying to do everything for everyone so they would love you and want you around always. Fighting off your greatest fear - that they would reject you and leave you. If you only did more….that wouldn’t happen. And yet, it happened time and time again, they left. And when you look back you realize that you became smaller each time, even though you didn’t realize it as it was happening…..

I thought I was happy in those situations, now I see that I was just going with the flow - not rocking the boat - and that is not living. It is existing. I don’t want that as my legacy. If this resonates with you, please let it stop today. Find the place inside of you that you can be kind to. Put yourself first. Know what you want and need and make those some of your priorities, you can find space in your life for you also. Have you ever been over to someone’s house and they offered you a drink and you said no I’m fine - even if you were thirsty because you didn’t want to inconvenience them?? That needs to stop now. I have challenged myself that the next time someone asks - I’m saying yes - damn it I’m thirsty. Just taking that first step, is a step in the right direction, baby steps are a step in the right direction. Doing anything is better than doing nothing. I am on a journey to be who I am meant to be - who I was meant to be all along - I am strong enough to get there - to enjoy my life and my own company.